omgsh its been so long since ive updated this xanga but i really like it so im still gonna update the REALLY important stuff here but the daily stuff and everything else will b on my other xanga (( beautifulxhazard ))

soooo .. it seems lola n charlie are still fightin .. hmmm .. can i ask why they even bother talkin ?? he doesnt kno wht 'i dont wanna talk to youu right now' means ... haha but yeah so i just ignore both of them pretty much ..

the DC Trip ... uhmm lets see ... moozer is roomin up with the laines and kathryn ... haha sorry moozer !!! and then lola n jani are roomin up with two other ppl .. then uhh rc cola n stinker are roomin with abby n emily ... and then shim allie n i are roomin up (( we dont have to have 4 ppl in our room !!! YEESSSSS !!!! )) haha but yeah and we leave for the trip 2 weeks from monday !!! gosh im soooo ready yet im not ..

but by 2 weeks from today i can go to the dubb for the first time in FOREVER !!! i get ungrounded march 1 !!! WHOOPI !!! .. well from goin out and doin stuff atleast .. but the whole computer thing .. haha uhhh i am only gettin on these days cuz my mamas outta town and if my mama knew daddi let me on then my mama would kill both my daddi and me (( me cuz i begged my daddi to let me on haha )) .. but yeah i should b ungrounded from the computer by may or sooo .. haha

track is tough these days and uhhh not really likin the workout .. haha the whole squat thing i couldnt do and glad i couldnt and i think ive done over 1000 push ups and crunches this week .. hahah .. the whole many push ups and crunches from track then all the ones i did at dance today .. gosh im gonna b so beastly .. EWWH !!

spring break is less than a month away !!! and i think im goin to south carolina on the beach with the myers (( not the science teacher and pe coach from bga .. haha )) and i get to have my own GOLF CART !!! I CANT WAIT !!! and this house is gonna b huge and i think were stayin for like 5-10 days !! cant wait .. hawaii would have been better but were just gonna do it some other time ..

i think i get to go to NYC the summer after 9th grade .. i cant wait !!! i love new york .. gosh !

ill update later !

okay, i've found out that my parents hate this xanga because they think it's 'negative' so i'm making a new xanga that doesn't go so much in detail as this one does but please come back to this one if you want a reminder of my past! i love you yall

~*beautifulxhazard*~

xoxo Ally

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build em up again
So heres your last change for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And ill be the first to go

Don't want to be the last to know
Wont be the one to chase you
But at the same time your the hart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[chorus]

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[chorus]

today was pretty decent but no day can compare to yesterday ! i guess ill spill it out now

okay so i got up took a shower and all that dandy stuff ! whoopi ! haha yeah then got to school right in the nick of time .. went to grammar .. borin class .. got called into the principals office .. yeah .. im not allowed to tell anyone wht i was talked to about but i can say i almost got suspended .. ugh ! i hate bga ! but yeah then finally i got bak to class and then left and went to science .. forgot and actually didnt wanna make up the test cuz i need to study some more haha cuz i heard it was really hard but i should do good on the diagrams cuz well those are just easy but yeah then we just watched a movie and i told miss lola something in note that NOBODY else should see and on the way to her desk nickC read it and i was like UGH ! NICK !!!! he pisses me off sometimes but like i find it rather funny when he flirts with goober ! hahahahha but yeah then i went to homeroom ... pretty borin but i just talked maggie and miss lola .. about some *stuff* but yeah then we finally left there and i went to mrs. claudes office b4 the bell rang with maggie and we talked claude about someone tryin to commit suicide .. yeah had to help even tho i hate his guts right now ! but yeah .. then i went to math and tok the quiz and finished in like 3 minutes then took the test .. funn ! i made a 100 on the quiz and a 92 on the test .. okay yeah funn ! then i went to computer and by the end of class i went over to chars desk to ask her about something cuz i heard 'charlie' told her wht mr. P told us .. ugh ! whtever but yeah the whole school already knows about it even tho when im around he tells ppl it was about his grades .. yeah right .. hes not failin anything ! but yeah then went over to JT and did my normal buggin session haha and kept typin random things onto his screen haha but yeah then also talked to marlette while i was there (( thats like the only time i really get to talk to him .. i dont think he wants ppl to know were friends .. oh well i dont care )) but yeah then i went to english and took the test and finished early so i was bored pretty much the whole time and wrote miss lola a note and threw at her as she was comin bak into class hahaha and she was like opps i dropped something (( atleast she acted like thats wht happened hahaha )) but yeah then i went to lunch and uhhh yeah .. i think im gonna get fat but i HAVE to work out again cuz last night after i updated i ran for like 2 hours and burned like 800 calories .. yeah then i did like 350 sit ups and uhhh .. lemme see whts one set of 8 + two sets of 8 + three sets of 8 + two sets of 8 + one set of 8 ??? oooo yeah its 72 .. i did 72 push ups .. YEAH !!!! haha but the weird kind we do at dance .. theyre harder than normal push ups yet easier to do hahaa cuz youu can go sooooo much faster ! but yeah then i went to uhhh chorus and yeah .. that was funny .. i was layin all over the floors hahaha and i went over to tanner and was like HEY !!! hahaha then i was like yeah ... BYE ! hahaha and left to sit with goober and miss lola .. funn ! yeah then i went to history and uhhh .. first part i thought something was wrong with me so i asked coachi M if i could go to the office and he was like what for and i was like its an emergency then yeah then came bak and then pulled my research for the paper out and some of it got cut off so i went to the library and got the whole article .. then uhhh i went pep rally and shim and goober were bored and wouldnt cheer but yeah .. 8th grade won .. surprisinly .. yeah and uhh then i went to the cafeteria for talent show rehearsal and tried doin this flip on the mats for those 5th grader cheerleaders (( they were soooo much better than our school cheerleaders but of course they go to premier soooo yeah hahah )) and as i flipped i landed but i kept movin hahaha and slidd and kept sliddin and went like 3 feet hahahahah ! and i couldnt feel my butt afterwards but hahaha i started crackin up and like everyone was like ARE YOUU OKAY !?!?!?! hahahahahha wow ! that was funn ! hahah yeah then finally the cheerleaders did this cheer/dance thing and were amazin and did flips i never could do .. haha i can do like anything that flyers do and i can be a good base but i would never be a spotter .. i suck at spottin but yeah then erin christina katie and caty had me help them with their skit cuz they had two ppl missin today and that was funni but yeah then snideys lil girl did the piano and emily played the piano b4 i did my cheer stunt ahahha but yeah then i was the last one to do my thing and erin christina and all them were dancin to my song and i kept gettin distracted but they said i did really good but i think i stunk but yeah and uhhh then we stayed a lil later than after i was done and took pics and once i get them developed ill put them up but yeah then katie and christina and i went to the bball game and then later i found allieS and marissa and then bga girls beat page girls !! YAY ! 30-10 ! whoop whoop ! hahah yeah then bga guys stunk tonight .. i stayed til the middle of the 2nd quarter .. haha couldnt stand it anymore and yeah i saw meg, jacey, mg, lauren(( whtever her last name is .. everyone calls her like lolo or something )) and laurenC .. FUN ! then my mama was late pickin me up so i talked to JT hahah funn and yeah then i went over to the high school and got picked up there and i saw the harvest mooonn !!! yay thats soooo pretty ! haha but yeah then i went to subway and those guys there had BO and the cookies tasted like barf ! EWWWH ! but yeah then i came home and opie puked twice in less than 5 minutes .. that was sick (( just as i was eattin hahaha ewwh ! )) but yeah then i got here and im dead cuz i have to do my notecards, outline, AND rough draft of my paper ! UGH ! its due monday so if i can just get my outline done tonight and type the rough draft in computer class tomorrow and i can just write it out for english but coachi M wants it typed up sooo yeah and i have english after computer sooo TOMORROW SHOULD BE GREAT ! hahah but yeah ... ooo did i tell youu ?  prolly have but i almost got suspended today ... ugh yeah i think i said that but ugh im just soooo pissed at *him* right now .. but yeah .. ill update later !

xoxo iloveyouu

charlie n mr. P ~ youu cant tell me wht and wht not to put in here .. this isnt at school and charlie .. not everything is about youu .. the world doesnt revolve around youu !

okay so today i was super happy ! very good mood .. my new personallity .. ill never let anything tick me off anymore .. ill just have some 'major melt downs' when im stressin but dont stress .. ill try not to yell at youu when i have those .. but yeah everybody else was like in a bad mood today .. except miss lola .. haha yeah we were happy teens today ! haha okay so heres the 4-1-1

woke up .. took a shower (( got squeaky clean in other words haha )) .. got ready .. got to school earlier than lately ! haha caught up with jasmine then we went to the academic buildin cuz we stalled like two minutes then heard the bell so just went on to class .. i caught up with zainaB and told her my dream .. haha yeah then went to history and put my books at killers desk to sit there then went to go grab my cats folder and he sat down and i was like killer pllzzz i was sittin here .. plz move .... i actually sounded nice today when i asked ! hahaha i was like all forcin .. but yeah so he was like somebodys sittin up there so i went up to my old desk and took that crap that belonged to nobody in the class onto a diff desk and then he moved into that seat then uhhh yeah looked in the book cuz everyone else was and then we took a quiz and i was the only one that got a 0 ! yay but yeah then we took notes .. wht a bore .. then 'worked on our research papers' .. haha yeah anyways .. then i went to grammar .. turned some of my hmwk in (( ill get 0 for that worksheet i didnt do .. or turn in .. i totally forgot about it tho until after class haha )) .. that was pretty borin .. charlie kinda hit on me in a way .. haha just randomly he looks at me and was like 'hey alyssa' .. yeah .... anyways then i was writin a note to give miss lola when we went to our lockers so yeah then i sat with her at assembly which is behind charlie and colin .. uhhh .. yeah haha and colin had dogg hair or some kinda hair all over him and it was sooooo disgustin ! but yeah then we started puttin the hair from colin onto charlies shirt .. uhhh yeah haha then finally he hit both of us and i kicked him in the butt a couple times cuz miss lola told me to haha but yeah finally when i was tryin to avoid him hittin me i had my feet to the side and he hit bak and hit my butt !! EEWWWWWHHH !! i need to wash my butt now .. but yeah then finally we left assembly .. and we started discussin 'hasnt youur mama ever taught youu to never hit a girl !?!' hahaha yeah .. then miss lola and i took our times at our locker and a couple minutes b4 the bell rang we finally moved haha just so we could make charlie late for class but yeah then i got sent to do an errand for harlan (( to drop some keys up at the front office )) .. yeah then i came bak and got sent bak out to the hall cuz i didnt take the quiz friday and so it was spauldin ted and me .. haha yeah we talked a lil and then i saw kelseyC and jasmine and talked to them til i got called bak into the room then we went over stupid stuff we were supposed to do over the weekend .. then we have a test tomorrow .. that should be easy but yeah then i went to computer and miss lola gave me a note before i headed to class ..so then i went to my seat and read the note .. haha pretty funny .. miss lola and my word this week is 'dink' ahahahahhaahah ! when i say it miss lola says i sound like im sayin 'dick' ahahaha yeah hilarious ! but yeah then computer class i took a quiz thingi that i was soooo not prepared for since i did miss two days out of four days of school last week .. ugh ! but yeah and my grade for computer is my ONLY failin grade .. i have a 54 .. but yeah .. then i went to english and we all got out of seats pretty much cuz leslie was gone and emily left our class for the smart class (( haha she went from short bus class to smart class .. haha )) but yeah so i sat behind charlie and next to miss lola .. and then later i lightly stabbed charlie in the bak with my pen .. cuz miss lola agreed to wantin me to .. haha yeah ... immediately he blurted out 'WHT THE HECK' hahahaha everybody started laughin at him ... not me .. everyone that i once was friends with takes my side once again !! YAY !! but yeah hahaha then we went to lunch and at the table today was miss lola , caitlin , shim , maggie , and kathryn cuz goober and i think rachel were in that lil lunch thing (( i go wednesday .. ugh ! )) but yeah it was kinda odd cuz hahaha we talked about pimples .. haha and about how some people at our school need pro-active immediately and talked about how *someone* picked a pimple today and had blood on their face all day .. yeah gross convo .. haha but yeah .. then we went outside and surrounded spauldin ! hahaha but yeah and we were like who are youu takin to the dance but i already knew who he was gonna ask cuz thats wht we were talkin about in the hall durin math .. haha (( jacey from like page .. i think thats the school she goes to )) .. but yeah then finally we went bak to class and i went to science .. miss lola and i went to the library to copy alainas notes but her color pens dont show up on the copy machine .. haha gee but yeah so we just went bak and stayed in the hall with charlie and colton .. haha wowz .. yeah and uhhh yeah i wrote miss lolas mama a note about how im sorry for wht i did with her son that one night and davis is a cheater .. he was goin out with amanda and then he uses me to make out and tried to do more but i didnt let him (( thank the Lord )) .. so yeah then charlie said or did something to gilmore fillmore cuz well he was like 'dont ever do that again' and then charlie said 'i was just kiddin with youu' .. but yeah ugh ! hes soooo stupid ! but yeah .. then he finally went to mr. P to talk to him .. haha yeah we knew exactly wht he was gonna say to him .. 'lauren broke my heart too' ... oooo wht a cry baby ! (( by the way .. he told mr. P and mrs. moon after i broke up with him about how i dumped him and stuff and hurt his feelins .. hahaha whtever .. and got me in trouble .. like i care ??? he needs to get over himself ! )) but yeah then miss lola went off to chorus without me so then goober caught up with me and we walked to chorus together and jasmine joined us but yeah then we started talkin about this weekend cuz we want to go out and get a dress for the vday dance and everything to go with it but yeah and we will prolly go to either green hills or cool springs (( i wanna go to cool springs just cuz i can get everything done in hects but like green hills might have some really really cute dresses )) but yeah and we were thinkin about gettin dresses to match those tiaras we got at the mall on that chorus field trip haha but yeah .. i wore my tiara most of the day ! hahah but yeah then we went the longg way bak to study hall and i stole miss lolas seat haha but yeah then after study hall was over i went to the lobby with miss lola while she called PT to set appointments this week but yeah then we went outside and talked to jani and 'sam' hahah and i told them about wht charlie did .. haha yeah .. theyre also on our side .. gee charlie messed with the wrong girls ! haha but yeah then i left and uhhh yeah then went to publix to get my daddis 300 dollars he got from the lottery .. yeah then i came home and im bored and i have to do my outline and all that wonderful crap .. and ugh ! now lukes friend is annoyin the shit outta me and he cant take a lil block not personally .. but oh well .. not gonna make me mad .. but yeah miss lola and i might go runnin tomorrow after school then drop by talent show dress rehearsal and quickly do my routine on the stage then go to the bball game .. haha yeah sounds funn ! so i wont be bak til later tomorrow  .. sad .. :: tear tear :: but yeah ill update later !

xoxo iloveyouu

~ thanks to all my friends that stay on my side .. its the right decision ! love youu all ! ~